Which
world do you want to live in? A world where everyone says “Fuck
you Jack, I'm all right?” I'm tired of that bullshit. It's made me
tired for a very long time. So long that it has gradually and
insidiously made me a shadow of my former self. So much that I have
been tempted over and again to not be here any more. It's made me
sell my soul to the devil and nearly destroy myself. It's an
attitude I am sick to the back teeth of. Where is the care? Surely
someone out there somewhere gives a flying fuck? But, you know what?
I wouldn't be in the slightest bit surprised if no one did.
I
have gone to the brink, believing this world is too far gone. I have
attempted to not be here, self-medicated, done everything possible to
stop thinking. To avoid being told (biggest insult possible when
Scottish) “you think too much”.
Maybe
I do. But then, maybe we could all do with thinking a bit more. Who
knows?
